谢谢你

又是你

谢谢你曾经那么痛恨我，让我再也不怕别人的严鄂。

谢谢你曾经那么讨厌我，让我再也不怕别人的讨厌

谢谢你曾经说了那么狠的话，让我再也不怕别人的训话。

谢谢你曾经伤透了我，让没有任何人可以比你伤我更重。

我好无助哦~

就不能回来吗？

真的很不喜欢这样的我。

对不起。对不起每次因为自己的不开心然后会那么的自然连接你，搞得自己更不开心，哭得更凶。

对不起，每次看完偶像剧男女主角甜蜜伤心，我会那么的自然又想起你。又让自己不开心。

对不起，我没办法和中学的那班朋友做朋友，因为他们是你的朋友。想起你，又会伤心。

对不起，现在的你在我的世界里，好像没有开心的回忆。

...............好像从以前开心，我俩应该有很少开心的回忆吧~

很多很多的不开心，憋着好累。

想

我一个人在房里，我想过很多可能性。

我在想，【如果】我们可以像【5年前】那样两个人可以单独相处，那有多好啊。

我在想，【如果】现在有一位像你【5年前】那么的了解我，那有多好啊。

我在想，【如果】你还像【5年前】那样顺从我，那有多好啊。

我在想，【如果】我们到现在还是和【5年前】那么的合拍，那有多好啊。

我在想，【如果】我在【5年前】没有那么的没大脑，你就不会生气我，那有多好啊。

我在想，【如果】我在【5年前】接受了你，然后就算我们现在是分手了但我们曾经有过一段回忆，那有多好啊。

我在想，【如果】 我没有在【5年前】的那天推开你，那有多好啊。

我在想，【如果】我们在【5年前】的那天晚上大胆一点，那有多好啊。 

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我在想，【如果】很多很多的【如果】。

如果你知道，我到现在还在伤着，你会怎样？

如果你知道，当初你的一时气话让我痛不如生，你会怎样？

如果你知道，在我的人生里真的只有你最懂我，你会怎样？

如果你知道，我现在会哭的原因全是因为你，你会怎样？

如果你知道，那天你说出现在我不会是你的好朋友让我心疼到现在，你会怎样？

那句话，真的真的很伤我的心啊！

你知道那天你说那句话，我正需要你的安慰但你还火上加油。

我听了，我当场哭了起来。

你没有立刻安慰我还骂我起来了。

你真的不知道，这句话很伤人吗？

而且，我才发现我在你的心目中真的连一颗灰尘都不如。

我不敢了。

电话号码删除了，我不会再找你了。

对不起，让你曾经有位让你感到反感严鄂的人在你人生里出现。

我会消失的。不会再来烦你。你要幸福下去。

 还有，谢谢你曾经冲动的对我做里那件事。

起码你让我留下那短暂的拥有。

回来了

很久，真的很久很久没有这样了。

本来我就差那么一点点能成功的，可是又失败了。

我去kao zai却失败，然后又让我想回你。

我们真的不应该再见面了，真的很认真地说，真的不能再看到你了。

你又害我想起很多我们以前的事了。

不是，是他们不断谈回以前的是，不断的提起。

我说过不能，真的不能提起这些事！一个都不能。

而且为什么在他的女友面前那样的折磨我？

虽然我是笑的，但是我的受不起。

一个人哭，没人能倾诉，头脑不断的想啊想啊，哭啊哭啊~

你觉得我可以吗？

妈呀，我已经21岁了。

我在大学快4年了，在这4年里，除了和朋友的时间，上课时间，你就这样不断的折磨我！

可以对我公平点吗？

My First Time, My Brave

Such a long time never update my blog although nobody read my blog.

haha... I got feel to update my blog suddenly just because I wanna show how brave am I.

Recently, I did something that I never ever did before in my 21 years' life.

Guys, know what?

May be I read too much of quote or meaningful movie, 

I read lots of quote about 爱是要争取的.

Sometimes I feel such quote so Noob actually,

so I don't even bother about it.

BUT!

recently, I agreed with that.and I started some action. 

I interested in someone, and he do not know who am I.

and I, go and be friends with him by FB.

such a big brave I did have. 

Seriously, really shy DAO BAO ah!

He seem like not interesting on me.

but I got try to chat with him.

If it's still not work, I think I'll just give up.

Cz really not suitable at all. haa xD

Oh yeah!!

hmmm..
Guess what?

just now I have a fight with Airasia again..

Which mean I brought ticket to somewhere to play again..

1st , I wanna to say : F*ck You Airasia!! keep on waiting room!!

But after few hours, I succeed!!

I brought for KL to Macau!! RM461 per person.. Included luggage and seat.

is that expensive??

dunno whether expensive or not.

and now I am damn worry.

Cz I scare my parents going to "suk me gao gao"

Aug I am going to Phuket and now Jan 2013 I am going to Macau.

I haven't earn money but I am wasting my parents money now.

I know I am bad, but I really hope to have some nice memory with them.

I will try hard to earn some money and save money!!

Mum n Dad sorryy!!! >.

Big Bang Alive Album!!

O.M.G!!!

Today I got it !!! I got it!!!

Is Big Bang Alive Album!!!

Wth!!!! This time that Album design is freaking cool!!

It is cover with iron... and the booklet inside!!

Two words to describe........"Cool & Heavy"

Check it out here!!

Alone Life---4 years

Guys, I going to talk about my alone life.

During this 4 years, how I pass my life.

I think should be start on when I started my college life in INTI here.

In 2009, I leave my town, my family, my friends
*Ops, should said I don have any friends on the time*

I came here study with no one,
without my family.

We can say that I really started my brands new life in INTI.

During the 1st year here, I was freaking enjoy and happy.
Well, brand new what. Is really interesting.

But actually is it not that fun at all,
I been hurt by a lot of ppl that I knew from here.

However, I got a sweet from the hurt.

In 2010, that was my really happy started.
I knew my really friends here.
5 of them, I never ever forget about them.

I started to hang out, dinner, singK, travel and many more with them.
We got a lot of memories.

After the joyful with them, I will back to be alone.

How to say?
Lets talk...

After hang out with them, I back to my room and I am alone again.
After dinner with them, I back to my room and I am alone again.
After singK with them, I back to my room and I am alone again.
After travel with them, I back to my room and I am alone again.
After be with them, I will again and again to be alone in my room.

Well, I got roommate but she not alone at all.
She always stay with her bf.

But why I will alone?
Just because I'm single for 4 years and I use to be alone.

Yet, I got my family.
But after I be with my family and I back to my room,
AGAIN!!!! I AM ALONE!!

Actually, I'm scare with alone.
But such a long time to be alone, I will feel so lonely.

Sometimes,
I wanna to talks but I have nobody to listen.
I wanna to cry but I have nobody to lie on.
I wanna to laugh but I have nobody to laugh with.
I wanna to emo but I have nobody to talks.

Everything like to shows me like,
actually I got my friends and family,
but in fact,
I am alone, actually.

Well,
I may be have to be normal with this. =)