回来了

这个我又来了，

感觉上每当快要Final Exam的时候，我都会不开心。

这次的我，比上次更不开心。

因为........我哭了。

我想是应该我真的很怕很怕...

很怕悲剧重演......因为我真的会承受不起了....

我又在很努力的，很拼命的读...

可是这样有效吗？

因为我觉得我不行.....我做不到...

越是那样我越怕，非常的怕...真的很怕...

再加上我不是聪明人....我不懂我能不能...

但上次证明了，我不能。

我有一直在努力，努力...

但我觉得我不是那么的了解我所读的一切..

我很累很累...我快要崩溃了...真的很辛苦啊～

再加上，

我觉得我和我的朋友们，有变化了...

我又再一次融入不到了...

我需要一个人，我现在真的很需要了。

不能了，我真的不能那样一个人了。

我一个人呆在外面，没有了家人，我真的需要一人来陪我了。

因为我支撑不起了。

好久没那样大哭了。

exam result

I start to admin that..

I really a stupid..

guess what..

I got F in my exam result..

which mean that....

I failed one subject..

what subject is that...

is QUANTITATIVE METHODS FOR BUSINESS..

something like statistic....

I failed that subject...

I am an accounting students...

I failed calculation...

I only got C2 for my accounting...

C1 for economic and financial...

B2 for english...

what I have to say... is...

I never got a good result...

some more... I got getting worse and worse result...

everytime, once I got my exam result..

once and once again shown that how stupid am I..

Isnt I never try my best?

I din study? I din work hard? I din use my brain?

God, can give me an answer?

why once I work harder my result will be the worse?

am I blowing off now?? or I still don want to accept the truth?

why? why have go give me such knock down to me?

I can't, I really can't accept this attack...

I will fall down, seriously I fallen down already.

I couldn't trust myself anymore, I lost my confident in studies.

I really ........... upset............

why? the started of this year,

everything come toward is positive one,

and now why have to give me such fucking negative to me!!

I can't effort, why ?

I really got study... come and check my exercise here...

I did all.. except chapter one only..

I study this subject early than other subject..

why still given me a F~!

this time really really really, seriously, PAIN. SAD.

ok~ I am just a no brain and stupid girl here...

INTI jail

I hate INTI~

Although I got a lot of frens here..

and I love my frens here....

But!

I really dunno why..

start from this sem,

once I stay in INTI...

I feel like so unsecured, feel like not so safety here..

Is that any problem toward me?

Isn't I was failed one subject,

I started to afraid studies..

might be..

I lost my confident in studies,

I started think that..

I AM STUPID.

This may be is the reason that I scare INTI,

I don't wanna back here..

I want stay with my family..

My only family..

Birthday>>>>>FINAL EXAM

Guys, u all knw?I had passed a wonderful birthday that I ever had.

I love, I really fucking love my friends here.

I love them... they are really different compare to

my sabah fren.

They will care abt me,

They will worry abt me,

They will think abt me,

In other words, they really love me..

firstly, my own gang friends here~

although they did not give me a big surprise,

but they did well and gave me a great gift in my birthday.

I wanna say that million of thx to them,

since they are busy but they still spent their in:

Making card for me,

Buying gift for me,

Making video for me.

Guys~ you all really awesome!!

Give u all a THUMB UP!

I got a cute boxer here!!!

I got a new HTC desire HD phone here!

I got a pretty nice shoe here!! TIAMO!! ^^

Thx for u guys prepare many thing for me!

I really Love its !!

and I will be appreciated it so so much!!

and I must take crazy care for everything!! Muackss! ^^

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Next celebration is I with my classmate!! My banana classmate!

(well I dunno they set them as banana classmate)

hehe...

Thx for them accompany me whole day from 22th to 23th..

We went to ate PASTE ZANMAI

Nice Food! Not bad here!!

I got a special birthday cake ever!

Thx for my banana classmate here!

After that, we went to ate snowflake!

What a freaking FULL birthday I ever had!

After that, once again!

I got cupcake as my birthday cake again!!!

hehehe!!

This is the gift from Vincent n Bear!!!
thx!! although this is pasar malam brand but I like also oh!!

hahaha!!

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Next round!!!

celebrating wit my family!!

Opss!! T^T no whole family,

just only quarter of them------------ 2nd sis and her husband.

they treated me to eat fish market!

hmm... actually not that nice at all...

after that, CAKE TIME AGAIN!!

haha! this time is the real round cake~

I choose mango cake!

Cz I love to eat mango!! hee

Night time, we BBQ!! hehe

yummy!!!

Yoyoyo!!

BLOWING!!

happy 20th birthday!!!

In a conclusion!!

I fucking happy during this time birthday!!

and I really happy!! really really!!

Thx for everyone !! Thx for u guys!!

MUACCCSKKKKKKKKKKKKKS!

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BUT NOW

HAVE TO STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cz FINAL COMING TO KILL ME!!!

T______________T

23th April

Guys, do u all know what is that date mean?

Okay, 23th April is my birthday.

Hrrmmm~ What should i except this year?

First, I do really hope dad buy me HTC DESIRE!! muahaha! xD

But ................ IMPOSSIBLE!

Second, my friends....

What they will buy for me uh?

hahaha~ Don care...

Third, my classmate...

will thy celebrate wit me?

especially my besties he and she, what they will do wit me?

Hehe~

Fourth, him...

That one who going to forget who am I in the world.

are he going to buy me gift?

although he buy me gift I SURE 100% don wan it.

I will not accept his gift.

Cz, I going to FORGET him too.

Fifth,

what wishes I going to make?

isnt only can make 3 wishes?

Horrr... I got lot of wishes to make~

1. My studies.

2. doomsday don come on next year pls.

3. Hope all my friends around me wont leave me alone.

4. I wan HTC DESIRE can? I mean during this year I must get it. can?

5. I want HIM disappear in my mind, my memory, my life.

6. I do really hope my studies can be better and better.

can I make all these wishes during my birthday?

DANCE!

Hmmm... Suddenly feel like wanna learn dance..

because I watched Girl Generation's mv: Tell me your wish.

this mv had showed 9 of them look VERY SUPER HYPER NICE!

Especially their LEGS. OMG!Freaking nice!Seriously!!

Well, I not hope to have their leg.

I just wanna try to dance,since I know to sing and shake a little bit my body.

hahaha... so I dunno is it I can dance or not.

so suddenly I feel like wanna dance.

because I never try before, but I think I can dance.

Hahaha~ but I got no chance to dance.so I think to dance that good enough,

BUT, I hope I got the chance to dance!! haha

HTC Desire HD

Mum and Dad,

can I have my favorite Phone?

I hope and wish to have a phone which I love the most,

but it seem like hard to be real.

because, I'm still a students

hence I couldn't have my own phone which I want.

I just can accept what parents give.

Actually I not angry at that,

and I really appreciated what they had gave,

just like this phone, I have been using this phone over 5 years,

and this phone still remain the same and function still work,

that only the looks is

bit broken. HAHA

since nowadays, the society is develop, and

everyone hand must be with Iphone,

therefore this make me hope to get a new phone.

But I'm not interest with Iphone!

Cz I fall in love with HTC desire HD

which can seriously fight with Iphone 4 nowaday,

but now I just can use to dream to have this phone,

by looking at this picture-----------------

when can I got this!!!!!!!!!!!!!???

pls god!! give me some miracle!!!