10/29/2009

I'm fat??!!!??

T.T yer... Im fat..

haiz...

Then MY FREN!!! How about this?? =p
This call hyper fat? =p
yer... I a bit fat only..
Haizz... I diet diet diet!! =p

10/28/2009

Lost

Last night when I cant slp, I think a lot of thing.

Finally I know the reasons why I'm so down tis few days.

I lost 4peaople which treat me so good. In this year.

Firstly, is him.
The best fren at secondary school.
We both so close.(Nt couple)
We cant talk a lot wit each others.
Anything Any happen we both must tell each other.
We knew each others since Form1 till Form5.
But now, he is changing.
So, we are not the best fren and close wit each other anymore.
This can say that in this year I most sad about tis.

Secondly, is him too.
I don wan to talk about him.

Next, is her.
My best fren. I lost also.
Knew each other since primary school till now.
Im too stubborn edi.
Tot Im the best I treat her really good but NO!
She don think so.
Or mayb Im wrong. Im not the best wit her.

Lastly, is him.
I tot tat he really the one wont like the previous fren thorw me alone.
But also same.
I lost edi. Getting far far away from him.

Everytime I tot that he or she is my best forever,
but finally I back to the alone.
I think is my fucking personality got problem.
If not I wont lost 4people in a year.

Today feel like wanna cry o~
My test result like shit of the shit.
some more I knew wat happen to me why cant sleep well this few day.

No one would like to stay wit me.
They hate me.
They dislike me.
Just because my personality got problem.
I think in my life will don have any BEST FREN anymore.
No one would like to be BEST FREN wit me.
I will be the always alone.

I trust the most, the most I disappointed.
What a worst day in inti today??!!??
Test like shit. Feel cool in alone.
Wanna shout out to cry.
But I cant.
I have to keep it inside my heart.
Act Im happy.
Find no one to talk.
This is the point I feel so suffer.
Need someone talk wit me.
No No No No No No NO!!!
Today I talk less than 10 sentences.

I wan back to my family.
Don wan fren world.~!
Fren just will gv u a lot of sad, hurt, pain..
Never care.

10/27/2009

Cant Sleep~

Suppose sleep already now.
But haven.

SHIT!! Tomolo still got class.
I still cant sleep.
Wat the hell is going on?!!?

I'm so tired. I should sleep right now.
Why I cant sleep?
T.T

Find no one to talk...T.T
Even one also no.

I just wan to talk to realese my tension or else.
Talk for fun. To joke. To play.
Hmm.. NO!

Its ok.. I just will be silent at here.
Everynight look at the fan truning.
And my eyes just open there, even my mind tell me I'm tired Is time to sleep.

But still cant sleep. Mind messy. T.T
Y.Y
No one to talk.
going to crazy soon.~

10/26/2009

hmm.., Should I?

aiyoyo~ suppose sleep edi..
But cant sleep.. Why ?
Hmmm... Dunno ooh..
Today quite tired actually, went out met up my ns fren.

So tired... Walk a lot.
I should feel so sleepy now, and on bed dreaming now.
But I cant sleep.Why?

Wat should I do now?
Tomorrow got presentation.
I din do anything for tomorrow.
Slide borrow with fren, and then I edited it only.
Never read it.
HaiZzzz... Fuck~ Wat happen to me..

Hmmm... Hide myself. Don let anyone see the reality me.
Hmmm... Actually wat am I thinking now?

Just everytime back INTI not so happy here.
getting worst at here.
It shouldnt be like tat..
It should be fun ang enjoyable.
Being different

I want go to play leh..
go genting, sunway, shopping, cameron highland, etc.
Relax my mind myself.

This few week fall in love to swimming edi.
When I swimming I will feel so relax.
My brain will be blank. Nothing to think.

Hmmm... Somebody help me?
I need hlep.
Acc me, make joke wit me, disturb me, slap me, hit me or else.
Help to do those thing wit me can?
aikZzz

10/21/2009

One day

The Feeling of me...
The feeling toward you...
Why you never know that feeling?
The feeling keep back and back to me.
When I run away from the feeling, but....FAILed!!
The feeling toward you back, thinking, suffering, sad-ing... then...
my tear will....
The 1st time I was keep a long .......... to someone.
I'm still waiting.
Still stay at here waiting the hope. the miracle happen.
Even I know that it counldnt be real. only got 0.01% hope.
But I never give up, I just wait at here.
Wait you come back to me.
Such as a stupid thinking.
He is not the best, not the prefect....but why I'm still like tat?
I keep tell myself I will meet a better guy in my future life.
He just like a guy which so normal and not the best passed by my life only
Why I paid a lot of attention to him.
Just becasue of my mind fucking brain mind problem.
He just only a mgs will make me crazy.
The hurt he done to me was........... pain.
Even he said sorry to me a lot a lot. No use>.<
You knw my feeling from the beginning till now?
Start from we close with each others that day started.
All the memorable thing to me...U?
I never forget any single thing between us, arents u?
Do you can feel the big changing to u?
Which will make me hurt?
Do you know my feeling?

Now, each years of my bday I will make a wish which that..
Hope one day you will know my feeling whn u thorw me away
and gv me the big changing felt from you.
Hope one day you will the pain from me.
I cant recover it back.
Half years, I still hurt bout that..
is it wasting my life, my time, my energy?
God help me plz..T.T

10/20/2009

BOOM!!!!

my brain going to BOOM soon arrrggh!!!

Many assignment to do ooh..

still got two essay to pass up on friday !!!

a lot of thing haven done yet!!!

anybody can help me??!!!???!

feel so tension now!!!!

panic!!!! headache!!!!

Hope can die now!!!!

10/14/2009

Life

Seem like 2009 not the good years to me.
Mostly is come from fren problem.
Hmmm... Sound moody.
But its ok~
I will be fine soon.

Hmmm... Now, I feel like wan go to the future.
Don wanna to stay at NOW.
Because that, NOW din bring any benefit to me.
Quite hate this years.

Put a lot hope at next year 2010...
2010, give me a feeling that I will be happy and nth to worry.
So now, I start to counting how long to 2010.

God~ If u hear wat im talking here,
plz gv me hope and make the time run fast to the next years.
I hope to be fine and fine and fine to next years.

10/13/2009

random

Wat I have to talk at here?

hmmmm... Last week + this week..

hmmm.. Last week so excited!!!
hehe.. I took photo wit Josh finally...
see!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He look so handsome..
God~
But he only come for study this sem,
next sem he not here la...
sad...~
nvm... at least got pic wit him^.^


Even Im not leng lui, but he really leng zai
hmmm...
Secondly,
I was cutted hair again.
Actually want to make my hair long again.
But it seem like so hard,
and the wheather is too HOT HOT HOT HOT.
Cant be patient,while my hair in half way to long.
At the middle there, feel so uncomfortable.
Hence, I was went to OSAKO(at kajang a saloon shop) cutted hair.

the act cute of me...
My new hair... nice?

hmmmm...
lazy to type anymore..stop here..
bye

10/10/2009

Right or wrong?

I had made a deicison that I dunno whether is right or wrong..

So confusing now..

God~ can u let me know is it the right decision I had made or wrong?

Just because different with last time,

so I dunno whether is good or not..

Totally not same wit last time,different that make me confuse.

Give me the ans can? I mean right or wrong?

let me know early.. don wanna to hurt myself or miss something..

10/06/2009

Quite sad

This morning I woke up,
my sis nudge me at msn me.

hmmm... Something happened in my family.
Felt so sad about that.
Wanna go and comfort my aunty but I dunno how to say.

Just only one months more,
the baby just came the world only one months more,
then god take he/she back.

He/She haven't watch the world,
haven't call my aunty mummy,my uncle daddy,my cousin bro and sis.
haven't call me jie jie.
Then he/she cant stay in the life.

haizzz... at 1st I still want to buy some toy or shirt to my new cousin.
It came so suddenly.
make feel quite sad today.
wanna to comfrot my yi yi but dunno how to say.

A baby stop heart beat inside ur stomach.
If you were her, whats ur feeling?
I can felt my yi yi feeling, she must be so sad now.

Some more need go to hospital take he/she out.
So hurt. She must feel so pain.

Besides, we haven't knw that the baby is boy or girl.
Pahetic. Sadness. heartache.


10/04/2009

earthquake + moon cake festival

last week.....

while im sleepng on the bed...

OppSSsss... My bed keep shaking... Wat happen wit tat?

at 1st I tot tat got something drity is disturbing me..

>.< very scare nie... How I change my sleeping position,my bed still shaking.

I no dare to sleep anymore, so that I sit on the chair.

But my chair also still shaking.

Yer... I really tot tat "GOOD FRIEND" is playing wit me..

So that, I went to my fren. told them wat was happened jz nw.

THEN,my fren told me is earthquake.=.="

Luckily not tat kind of "GOOD FRIEND" play wit me..

Hehe...

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Yesterday was moon cake fetival,

even thourgh Im not celebrate wit family,

but I have one sister here,but she also not free on tat day.(she went to wedding party)

so I stay at my sis in low house.

pass moon cake festival wit thier family.

Well. I din stay with thm all the time, most of the time I just inside the room.

I have nothing to do too.

Trying to study. Next week I got 3 test.

Walao... XIAO de~ haiz...

I dunno how to study. Wat should I do?

aikZzz... Tis sem is going too fast. next week is week6 in this sem.

Why time run so fast?

hmmm.... Sometimes I hope that the time is run fast..

Because I so curious on next year,

is it I will be so happy and happy on next year?

I will be very lucky on next year?

I will be meet my mr.right on next year?(hope this much>.<)

haizzzz... anyway, hope tis sem I pass all subject.

God bless me!! GUANG YING NIANG NIANG bless me too~

muackzzZZz