12/30/2009

Happy New year???

Now bak to INTI edi.
Before that I tot that bak before 31th can celebrate wit fren new years.
but doesnt seem like tat.
Mayb just only myself think like tat.
Others don hv tis idea.
Quite sad of tis.
1st time alone pass new year.
Even family I also don have.
Even place I also just stay at hostel.
Suddenly feel hyper lonely now.
Really need someone accompany.
who? GOD??
HaizZZZz.. Sound sad now.

12/29/2009

Result oouuutttTTtt..

Wow.... Finally result our edi.
just felt so relax now.
before that very gan jiong arrgghh.. Hehe
But now out edi. I feel so happy and relax edi.
But tomolo gonig to kl loh..
HaizZz
have to bak to the Suck place again.
pass my life suck at thr.. HaizZz...
Sad... Suffer... Tension.. And Hurt. T.T

12/25/2009

???

圣诞节~
对我来说一点意义都没有。
因为每次不是睡觉来过,就是看电视,或是在家。
虽然圣诞给我一点温馨的感觉。
但今年我有点讨厌圣诞还有那无聊的节日。
烦到死~
可能有人会觉得是因为我没人陪吧~
可是对我来说真的很麻烦!
而且节日会让人不开心又开心又会让人想起很多很多的事~

嗯.....应该是七月吧~
我的个人情绪又傻了。
再到了九月我已经自暴自弃咯。

这几天不段回想以前的事。
事事不如意。
而且自己的怪僻回来了。

xiao zha po
又管自己在房~发神经~
假笑~乱发脾气~and moody...
Suck Man!!!

哈哈哈~人衰是酱的咯~
每个人抛弃我~除了家人

12/23/2009

STupid Fucking DAY!!!

Today tot is result release date!!
But wat the FUCK~!!!!
I check since morning 8am till now still haven get yet!!!
Mother Fucking!!!
"Result for this semester is not available yet."
"Please check again later.
"
Keep show me this sentences!!!
FUCK!!!!!!!!!
Make me so nervous!!!
Yorrrrr!!!!! Down mood larrhh!!!!
Hmph>.< Stupid NILAI inti!!!!
Faster larrr!!! I cant wait for it..
Even through Im scare of it.
But I want to face it!

12/22/2009

Xmas is coming~

HmMmm... Today is 冬至,quite nice.
Because I wit all my beloved family, except my big sis & 2nd sis having dinner just now.
Ate a lot of thing.
Some more I had made CHOCOLATE 汤圆o~
hehe... Happy^^
Moreover, Xmas is coming..
HmmMm.. Same! Never chg! I still have to pass my Xmas wit lonely wit alone^^
HmMmm.. But I still feel so warm to Xmas.^^
Nevermind ooOooO~ Even alone I still wont be sad bah..=p

His bday is tomorrow o~>.<
SUAN~ hehehehe

HmmMM.. This few days early morning wake up to jogging.
My leg feeling pain now.
Mayb long time din jog bah.
Now my leg quite pain.
And so sleepy. Too early wake up for jog.(6am)
So mayb tomorrow I wont go loh..
hehe~ take enough sleep 1st^^
Some more let my leg rest ooh..
hehe~

Seem like my mood is good now.
But I hesitating now.
Is it this is my real feeling.
Hide myself inside home since I back from kl till now.
Is it Im did the right thing?
confusing now.. Hahaha

Nevermind bah~ Keep on this kind of attitude,
mayb will help me a lot.
And don worry. 2010 is coming.
Mayb a new year is a new life for me^^
加油!!!陈雪妍!!!!

12/14/2009

Lonely

I tot that I wont scare wit lonely's feeling.
I tot that I will love to lonely.
But this few days I avoid it.
Bcz I scare lonely, alone.

Tomorrow going bak sabah^^
Sad that I have to alone go bak again.TT

11/30/2009

Exam??

Hmmm... the second final exam to me again.
Tis saturday is the final exam of malaysian studies- moral.
Hmmm.. Not worry about that. Bcz just knw my course work mark.
I get 49 mean when final I no need so worry about that.
So far I very worry about my english,business and economics.
Hmmm... Anyway I also hope this sem I can improve all my subject result.
A to A+, C to B, B to A. God bless me.
Hmmm... But I also don so greedy just wish that I can pass all my subject.

-----------------------------------------

Other than that, 28th nov I had a sweet dream which I never have b4.
I had dreamed him.
He did a lot of thing to me during the dream.
actually the dream quite messy.
But everything come to me is so prefect.
Which make me so enjoy during the dream.
Unlucky that, suddenly got a naughty boy wake me up.
So I cant continue wit that dream.
Last9 I try to dream it bak.. but I failed.. :(
So tonight I hope I can dream it bak... :D


11/25/2009

Sien

Yesterday same the lonely day to me.
I tried to called him, but he was busy his assignment.
He asked me to wait him free.
So, I was waiting him on that time.
Almost 4am, I bah tahan I went to slept din wait him.
Since we long time din chit chat, I just miss him and call.
But same. He always busy. Fine =p

Other than that, one of my fren is in a complicated relation wit TWO boys.
I doesn't knw wat she is thinking now.
Always tot that she very geng very mature can hold on everything.
Actually she is not. She just make a guy suffering there and keep on do the same thing to him.
The another boy even doesn't look like care her so much, but she seem like so care him.
And then.. haiz... Anyway just complicated.
Dunno she is like the another boy's material or true heart.
either she is love the another boy's happy or for fun.
She was lie me she went to find her aunty at kl yesterday.
But I knw that she went to find the another boy which together wit him 2 years de.
Then both of them always argue wit the topic of " HIM"
which is suddenly come out at their relation.
If she wit him's relation is hardship and she really love him,
she wont care about the another boy which suddenly come out from them relation.
But she did something more close thing wit the another boy.
How come.???
I got talk about this topic wit all my fren which is around her de.
HMmmMm.. Anyway Complicated only.
From my opinion I hope that she at the end lost everything.
Two of these boys will disappear in front her.

And from me, don hope to couple anymore edi..
Very troublesome and annoying wit LOVE this word.
But I still love my family..

Don wan here

I wan back Sabah.
I really don wan stay at here.
A week almost 3or 4 days is alone stay at room.
Friends always dating wit boyfriend.
Room always empty.
So lonely...T.T
I hope I can back Sabah soon.
Just don wanna to stay at here. Don wan always alone.
Although I back Sabah I also just stay at house, but I still got my parent.
Not like here, only weekend I can go to find my sis.
and not always weekend I can go and find her.
Cz sometimes she is not free.
At the end, I still have to alone stay at here.
This Fucking place, which make me so stressful, tension, boring, suck, damn, shit!!!!
Back Sabah I feel so warm, cz got my mum together wit me.
T.T I hate here, Fucking Fuking shit damn lar!!!!
Always sick just can face alone, pain just can cry alone.
Felt sad wit that.
Btw feel like nothing wit this lonely feeling.
cz I also dunno. Don wan others wit me. Xcluding my family.
Don wan fren, Don wan Boyfriends, Don wan here.
I just wan my family.
When I can stick wit them together.
I hate fren, I hate here.
I wan family. T.T

11/21/2009

I wan mummy.

So pain vry pain.
Why each month I will pain till like tat??
T.T If now I at sabah Mummy must take good good care to me.
I wan mummy.
Im so pain now.
Face this pain by myself. alone T.T
So suffering now.
Every month I must be like tat.
Why period so suffer de? haiz..
Why boy din period? they should knw gal's suffer.
HaizzZZ..
Whole day pain till I cant even walk.
T.T I wan mummy. Mummy's food can make feel better.
Wont so suffer now. till midnight still cant sleep.
So pain. So tired. So suffer. T.T
I wan bak sabah wan mummy wan ppl take care me.
So lonely. No mum's soup. No caring.
Alone Alone Alone!!! T.T
I wan mummy leh!!! MA!!!! Ngai oi ngit ooh!!
Hao tong hao tong ooh~ mao lit hoi arr!!! oi si hoi loh!!
T.T

11/20/2009

wat to do?

Suppose to post something here.
But seem like nothing to say.
Sem break is coming soon,and I can bak sabah soon.Happy
But at the same time I worry about my result.
Scare I will re-take. HmmMm.. Worry-ing.
Sem break----plan to ply..
But all of my fren dunno hv to go where for fun.
GENTING?? Holidays. Many ppl.
SUNWAY?? Holidays. More ppl.
HmMm... Langkawi. Dunno. Still the question marks.
HaizzZz.. Seem like this sem break I going to bored the whole day again.
T.T Nvm luurhh.. Bak sabah leave this place is the most happy thing to me.
The end of the year is coming.
Xmas??? 100% with family.
Happy new year??? will how?? also the question marks to me.
I will be happy on that day??
or bored again???
Don expect anything wit that.
just hope my result will be better^.^

11/15/2009

Loading, in process

Going to success wit something.
I can not care about that.
I can not worry about that.
I can not think about that.
I can refuse about that.
Good job. GalzzzZ.

11/14/2009

..


When I really need you, you disappear.
When I don need you, you appear.

I need you, but I stay far away from you.

I wish I am

Just from my sis there.
Hate bak here.
Suck place, Btw suck place plus suck gal.
Prefect!!

On the way bak INTI.
I in bus, felt so lonely.
Vry down. listen some hot song.
Nth used to me.

Fuck! hmmm
While inside bus.
I saw a women fall down.
Vry pain some more raining.
Suddenly hope that I were her.
Which can fall down more serious. More pain.


11/12/2009

SuckssSSsss Galz~

The suck gal is ME!!! CHIN SHET YAN.
My mum shouldn't born me.
in chinese-生个叉烧好过生我..

I be the "cha shao" at least can feed my mum,
now i even cant feed my mum still Yeng sui my mum my family my fren.

Leave me alone..
wtf!!! ma de..
emo emo down down down..!!
diu!!!
never be better!!
fuck off la!!!!
Im fuck off!!!
fuck off from the world!!!
polluted the world!!!

11/08/2009

Regret or thankful?

I should felt so regret to knw u or thankful leh???
MA DE

11/04/2009

The short Happiness>.<

Finished watched movie.. Quite boring movie.. TIME TRAVELER>.<
baskin robbins~ Wit my farvorite MANGO!!!


At the garden.. >.<


Teach Jo Jo How to act cute..~


Tat moment stick wit them I felt so happy, enjoyable.
But when bak here... INTI Hostel!!

My mood is going to down.
Hmm~ I trying to don think so much.
Think about positive thing.
HmmM. It seem like so hard. But I keep on try and try.
However, I keep on failed and failed.
HmmM.. I hope I knw the real the truth.
But I scare Im hurt Im sad Im cry again and again.
Is hyper suffer.
I wan knw .. thinking.
Actually wat .. wan..~

My happiness always is short.
Is getting short and short. HaizZz

This sat mayb alone go to SG shop shop shop!!!
Untill I crazy.. >.< The always alone's me..
Somebody help me???

11/03/2009

Feel like I knw something edi..
Which that I don expect and hope to happen...
I feel so sad. But why I'm sad.
.. not mine, not my who.
Then why I wan so care about that.
I should congrat and wish ..
But I cant do that.
I just be silent thr.
Keep on quite there. Keep on thinking a lot negative thing.
I am who I am?? Is it just a soul?? or actually I'm dead?
Fed up... Fed up wit my life.
Why I'm dare no to die??? If I'm so brave I wont be so suffer with my life now.
I can stay at hell no need to think a lot of thing.
Worry this or that.
Fuck off ME!!! Useless gal!!!!

窗外阴天了 音乐低声了
我的心开始想你了
灯光也暗了 音乐低声了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了 人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了
电话响起了 你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎麽你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了 是你变了
灯光熄灭了 音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了 人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了

11/02/2009

I just don wanna disturb u anymore.

My life should life without u. Not wit u.


11/01/2009

Sem2 = Tension = Stressfull = hopeless

Suppose so enjoying now.
But Im so tension.
This sem seem like so hard to pass.
Almost 2 weeks edi, I still cant sleep well.
End of the year is coming, should have a new brand day in each day.
But it seem like so hard.
Everyday hard than a day.
I don wanna to give up.
But god is playing me now.
Keep make me down and down.
When he put me to the top top top,
and then he push me to the valley.
Not only one time!! Keep on repeat!!!
Is it fun? Is it fair to me? Is it worth?
Arrgghhh!!!!!!!!!! Can I die?
If u really like to fool me, better u let me die.
FUCK!!! MA DE!!! DIU!!!! PUKIMAK!!!!!
No one can help me!!! All FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF!!
KEEP ON FOOL ME FOOL ME FOOL ME ONLY!!!
MA DE!!!
Compare wit my older post and my old blog.
I never everyday post all the negetive thing here!!!

10/29/2009

I'm fat??!!!??

T.T yer... Im fat..

haiz...

Then MY FREN!!! How about this?? =p
This call hyper fat? =p
yer... I a bit fat only..
Haizz... I diet diet diet!! =p

10/28/2009

Lost

Last night when I cant slp, I think a lot of thing.

Finally I know the reasons why I'm so down tis few days.

I lost 4peaople which treat me so good. In this year.

Firstly, is him.
The best fren at secondary school.
We both so close.(Nt couple)
We cant talk a lot wit each others.
Anything Any happen we both must tell each other.
We knew each others since Form1 till Form5.
But now, he is changing.
So, we are not the best fren and close wit each other anymore.
This can say that in this year I most sad about tis.

Secondly, is him too.
I don wan to talk about him.

Next, is her.
My best fren. I lost also.
Knew each other since primary school till now.
Im too stubborn edi.
Tot Im the best I treat her really good but NO!
She don think so.
Or mayb Im wrong. Im not the best wit her.

Lastly, is him.
I tot tat he really the one wont like the previous fren thorw me alone.
But also same.
I lost edi. Getting far far away from him.

Everytime I tot that he or she is my best forever,
but finally I back to the alone.
I think is my fucking personality got problem.
If not I wont lost 4people in a year.

Today feel like wanna cry o~
My test result like shit of the shit.
some more I knew wat happen to me why cant sleep well this few day.

No one would like to stay wit me.
They hate me.
They dislike me.
Just because my personality got problem.
I think in my life will don have any BEST FREN anymore.
No one would like to be BEST FREN wit me.
I will be the always alone.

I trust the most, the most I disappointed.
What a worst day in inti today??!!??
Test like shit. Feel cool in alone.
Wanna shout out to cry.
But I cant.
I have to keep it inside my heart.
Act Im happy.
Find no one to talk.
This is the point I feel so suffer.
Need someone talk wit me.
No No No No No No NO!!!
Today I talk less than 10 sentences.

I wan back to my family.
Don wan fren world.~!
Fren just will gv u a lot of sad, hurt, pain..
Never care.

10/27/2009

Cant Sleep~

Suppose sleep already now.
But haven.

SHIT!! Tomolo still got class.
I still cant sleep.
Wat the hell is going on?!!?

I'm so tired. I should sleep right now.
Why I cant sleep?
T.T

Find no one to talk...T.T
Even one also no.

I just wan to talk to realese my tension or else.
Talk for fun. To joke. To play.
Hmm.. NO!

Its ok.. I just will be silent at here.
Everynight look at the fan truning.
And my eyes just open there, even my mind tell me I'm tired Is time to sleep.

But still cant sleep. Mind messy. T.T
Y.Y
No one to talk.
going to crazy soon.~

10/26/2009

hmm.., Should I?

aiyoyo~ suppose sleep edi..
But cant sleep.. Why ?
Hmmm... Dunno ooh..
Today quite tired actually, went out met up my ns fren.

So tired... Walk a lot.
I should feel so sleepy now, and on bed dreaming now.
But I cant sleep.Why?

Wat should I do now?
Tomorrow got presentation.
I din do anything for tomorrow.
Slide borrow with fren, and then I edited it only.
Never read it.
HaiZzzz... Fuck~ Wat happen to me..

Hmmm... Hide myself. Don let anyone see the reality me.
Hmmm... Actually wat am I thinking now?

Just everytime back INTI not so happy here.
getting worst at here.
It shouldnt be like tat..
It should be fun ang enjoyable.
Being different

I want go to play leh..
go genting, sunway, shopping, cameron highland, etc.
Relax my mind myself.

This few week fall in love to swimming edi.
When I swimming I will feel so relax.
My brain will be blank. Nothing to think.

Hmmm... Somebody help me?
I need hlep.
Acc me, make joke wit me, disturb me, slap me, hit me or else.
Help to do those thing wit me can?
aikZzz

10/21/2009

One day

The Feeling of me...
The feeling toward you...
Why you never know that feeling?
The feeling keep back and back to me.
When I run away from the feeling, but....FAILed!!
The feeling toward you back, thinking, suffering, sad-ing... then...
my tear will....
The 1st time I was keep a long .......... to someone.
I'm still waiting.
Still stay at here waiting the hope. the miracle happen.
Even I know that it counldnt be real. only got 0.01% hope.
But I never give up, I just wait at here.
Wait you come back to me.
Such as a stupid thinking.
He is not the best, not the prefect....but why I'm still like tat?
I keep tell myself I will meet a better guy in my future life.
He just like a guy which so normal and not the best passed by my life only
Why I paid a lot of attention to him.
Just becasue of my mind fucking brain mind problem.
He just only a mgs will make me crazy.
The hurt he done to me was........... pain.
Even he said sorry to me a lot a lot. No use>.<
You knw my feeling from the beginning till now?
Start from we close with each others that day started.
All the memorable thing to me...U?
I never forget any single thing between us, arents u?
Do you can feel the big changing to u?
Which will make me hurt?
Do you know my feeling?

Now, each years of my bday I will make a wish which that..
Hope one day you will know my feeling whn u thorw me away
and gv me the big changing felt from you.
Hope one day you will the pain from me.
I cant recover it back.
Half years, I still hurt bout that..
is it wasting my life, my time, my energy?
God help me plz..T.T

10/20/2009

BOOM!!!!

my brain going to BOOM soon arrrggh!!!

Many assignment to do ooh..

still got two essay to pass up on friday !!!

a lot of thing haven done yet!!!

anybody can help me??!!!???!

feel so tension now!!!!

panic!!!! headache!!!!

Hope can die now!!!!

10/14/2009

Life

Seem like 2009 not the good years to me.
Mostly is come from fren problem.
Hmmm... Sound moody.
But its ok~
I will be fine soon.

Hmmm... Now, I feel like wan go to the future.
Don wanna to stay at NOW.
Because that, NOW din bring any benefit to me.
Quite hate this years.

Put a lot hope at next year 2010...
2010, give me a feeling that I will be happy and nth to worry.
So now, I start to counting how long to 2010.

God~ If u hear wat im talking here,
plz gv me hope and make the time run fast to the next years.
I hope to be fine and fine and fine to next years.

10/13/2009

random

Wat I have to talk at here?

hmmmm... Last week + this week..

hmmm.. Last week so excited!!!
hehe.. I took photo wit Josh finally...
see!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He look so handsome..
God~
But he only come for study this sem,
next sem he not here la...
sad...~
nvm... at least got pic wit him^.^


Even Im not leng lui, but he really leng zai
hmmm...
Secondly,
I was cutted hair again.
Actually want to make my hair long again.
But it seem like so hard,
and the wheather is too HOT HOT HOT HOT.
Cant be patient,while my hair in half way to long.
At the middle there, feel so uncomfortable.
Hence, I was went to OSAKO(at kajang a saloon shop) cutted hair.

the act cute of me...
My new hair... nice?

hmmmm...
lazy to type anymore..stop here..
bye

10/10/2009

Right or wrong?

I had made a deicison that I dunno whether is right or wrong..

So confusing now..

God~ can u let me know is it the right decision I had made or wrong?

Just because different with last time,

so I dunno whether is good or not..

Totally not same wit last time,different that make me confuse.

Give me the ans can? I mean right or wrong?

let me know early.. don wanna to hurt myself or miss something..

10/06/2009

Quite sad

This morning I woke up,
my sis nudge me at msn me.

hmmm... Something happened in my family.
Felt so sad about that.
Wanna go and comfort my aunty but I dunno how to say.

Just only one months more,
the baby just came the world only one months more,
then god take he/she back.

He/She haven't watch the world,
haven't call my aunty mummy,my uncle daddy,my cousin bro and sis.
haven't call me jie jie.
Then he/she cant stay in the life.

haizzz... at 1st I still want to buy some toy or shirt to my new cousin.
It came so suddenly.
make feel quite sad today.
wanna to comfrot my yi yi but dunno how to say.

A baby stop heart beat inside ur stomach.
If you were her, whats ur feeling?
I can felt my yi yi feeling, she must be so sad now.

Some more need go to hospital take he/she out.
So hurt. She must feel so pain.

Besides, we haven't knw that the baby is boy or girl.
Pahetic. Sadness. heartache.


10/04/2009

earthquake + moon cake festival

last week.....

while im sleepng on the bed...

OppSSsss... My bed keep shaking... Wat happen wit tat?

at 1st I tot tat got something drity is disturbing me..

>.< very scare nie... How I change my sleeping position,my bed still shaking.

I no dare to sleep anymore, so that I sit on the chair.

But my chair also still shaking.

Yer... I really tot tat "GOOD FRIEND" is playing wit me..

So that, I went to my fren. told them wat was happened jz nw.

THEN,my fren told me is earthquake.=.="

Luckily not tat kind of "GOOD FRIEND" play wit me..

Hehe...

----------------------------------------------------------

Yesterday was moon cake fetival,

even thourgh Im not celebrate wit family,

but I have one sister here,but she also not free on tat day.(she went to wedding party)

so I stay at my sis in low house.

pass moon cake festival wit thier family.

Well. I din stay with thm all the time, most of the time I just inside the room.

I have nothing to do too.

Trying to study. Next week I got 3 test.

Walao... XIAO de~ haiz...

I dunno how to study. Wat should I do?

aikZzz... Tis sem is going too fast. next week is week6 in this sem.

Why time run so fast?

hmmm.... Sometimes I hope that the time is run fast..

Because I so curious on next year,

is it I will be so happy and happy on next year?

I will be very lucky on next year?

I will be meet my mr.right on next year?(hope this much>.<)

haizzzz... anyway, hope tis sem I pass all subject.

God bless me!! GUANG YING NIANG NIANG bless me too~

muackzzZZz

9/29/2009

可笑

今天发生一件很可笑的事....

我不懂如何来形容,但总之这对情侣很很很无知又幼稚...

我想不到要如何来把全部故事说出来...

我不觉得她很可怜,反而是很无知~

事情没说清楚就乱想乱说...

而且如没错误,我的电脑被她们偷看过。

我和我的朋友chatting留下来的history。

要不然不会那么懂事情的经过....

9/27/2009

还是一个人

到头来我还是觉得一个人比较好。。
没有所谓的好朋友,要好朋友,真心朋友。
我觉得一个都不需要...

本来还以为我不在一个人。
但时间胜过一切。
它能把所有东西变成另外一样。

到后来我还是一个人,
还是一个人。
永远的吗?

今天突然感觉到一个人很恐怖。
我又能如何呢?
没人亲近我....
虽然有一两只小猫,那我也珍惜咯~

算了吧~
我认输了....我的命运就交给你(神)吧~

您想要如何玩弄我,如何捣乱我,
我也无话可说了~
因为我任命也认输...

I'M FED UP^^

9/22/2009

SICK

The 1st time feel so lonely when I sick-ing.


No one caring...


Fren still out for dating?


So suffering, sick no one take care............


So sad...:'(

9/16/2009

+——)(*—……%¥#·!+——)*—……¥#·!~——)(*—……%¥#·!~


还是一个人比较好!!!
我讨厌我的朋友!!!
她以前对我有多好,当有男友就没朋友!!!
两个都一样!!!
算什么新的学期我们同一间房,
我们开开心心...每天在一起~
当谈恋爱了就每天出去,丢下我一个人在房~
一个人在一间双人房,很闷很闷~
一天就见到她们1小时,其他的时间我看在睡觉时咯。
但我睡了她们都还没回的....
我觉得我自己很恨她们~

我们的友情就因为那两个男人而变,
你们觉得值得吗?

9/09/2009

没有

一个人来到这里,
到最后一无所有。

我已经很努力了..........
为什么那么难?
身边的人没有一位是可靠的.............
Independent适合我吗?

唯一一位我真心对待的朋友,
原来他已经不当我是他的真心朋友了。

我没有缺爱,但我真的受伤了。
不管爱情还是友情我都最终的失败者..........
家人呢?
好远.......我自己一个人............很累,很不开心...............

逼自己要乐观,但我发觉很难......
遍了很多谎言骗自己,但真实的我还是骗不了....
我.............该怎么办?
好累........很想离开这个世界..........到一个没烦恼的地方.....
人类很犯贱

才发现到......每个人都给我空欢喜

9/08/2009

自己的感受

当你不开心时,你的感受

那会不会有人会懂得?

你的痛会有人懂得吗?

我觉得自己本身的感受别人永远都不理解。

那时上天特别的设计?还是它在玩弄我一个人?

每当我要好了时,一定又从我的伤口盐!

我只想要有人能懂我的感受,来安慰下我...

借我肩膀来哭

9/07/2009

他妈的

想一拳把自己把昏哦!!!

9/05/2009

!@#$%^^&*()()_+

觉得自己很乱...








我只要一个人静静地~



有时不想让人知道我的事,

因为有时不是那么喜欢别人的意见....
感觉到我的意见不是那么的符合别人的意见。

我觉得我的人格真的很不好。
太差了...

9/03/2009

很大的分别

还记得上次我生病的时候,
他为了我买粥还不断地照顾我..
那时的我真的很开心,
因为我来到这里也是有人会照顾我的.
他的细心,他的关怀,他的温柔。
让我不自不觉得满满对他有感觉了~

就不懂那一天开始突然间的,
他不是那么的理我了~
现在和之前差别超大....

那时他有高树窝他之前是喜欢我的~
但因为我和其他男的都很close所以他不敢对我take some action.
那我也告诉他其实我也是对他有感觉的。
我还以为我们会有结果,
没想到他竟然我最要好的朋友在一起了..

这几天的我过得很辛苦,
我明明是不开心,但我需要在他们的面前扮得很开心。
在他们的面前笑得很辛苦。

现在的他连和我多说几句都没了,
因为它很专心德和我的好友联络感情,
没想到一个人说换就换。

如果当初不想和我有进一步的距离就不要对我那么好,
让我对你有感觉。
让我对你有感觉后,就把我摔开。
很好玩哦?

现在的我过的每一天都很辛苦...
昨天我病了,他连一句关心的话都没,
他真的很专心的每天和我的好友sms sms sms sms...
我们在shopping的时候他们忘了我在后头,
还把我一个人留在那里。。忘了我...
那时我一个人站在百货市场看着人来人往,
不懂要如何....幸亏有一位朋友发觉我不见,就来找我了。
原来我现在在他的眼里什么都不是了~
之前对我的好不见了,说什么永远都不会不理都是假的。
说每个星期一定会让我吃很好吃的蛋糕,
现在我一片都没吃到了。
就只两个星期而已,很快就变了。

突然我只想离开这里,去别的地方。

9/01/2009

秘密

第一次的把我的秘密写出来~
可能受在心里太久了,有点忍不住的感觉....

我的一位新朋友,她和我很好很好...
我们俩都称对方为honey....
说真的我们真的很好真的很好...

可是我的心里就有点很不好...
我有时会觉得不是那么喜欢她~
我是怎么了?我感觉到自己很坏叻~
可是她是不是真心地对我呢?可能我从来都没有遇到对我真心的人呱..
感觉到自己很多人都不是很相信他们..

因为从以前到现在,从来没有一位朋友能永永远远都真心对待我~
是我的人格问题吗?我很难相处吗?
每当我正在享受他们对我的好事,
一定的一定的突然间他们不理我了?
我真的很不好吗?我真的人格不好哦?
为什么老天也突然间很喜欢让我感觉那么大的差别..

每当她对我好,我就会内疚一次...
然后我就会对她很好很好~
可是为什么?为什么我就使还是不是那么喜欢她?
我到底什么了?

连上次喜欢我对我很好很好很好的那位男生突然都不理我了~
我感觉到自己很不好..
我真的很失败...身边总是找不到一位能长长久久对我好的朋友,
会永永远远对我好的...

让我更伤心的事是就连他都不理我了?
我该怎么办呢?
我的真心朋友叻?我要向谁倾诉?

我真的很不开心~
会到来的第一个星期都不开心了~
我还以为放假后回来,他们会让我把不开心的又忘了~
没想到竟然变多了?
我该怎么办啊?
我可以去死吗?很笨噢~
但我想不到其他的方法了~

因为我身边的每一位人都不懂我现在的心情~
我真正的心~我不开心的心情~
真的很想死~怎么办?

才发现到我很久没真心地笑了~



8/28/2009

姐姐


我家有位姐姐,而我是老幺....
通常姐姐们都很疼我,妈妈也不例外~
而爸爸就很公司分明咯~

小时候和姐姐有很多回忆,那些改天聊吧~
今天突然很担心3姐,因为他和他的男友分了~
嗨~如果他们是普普通通的分开我就不会很担心。
但他们分开的时候,发生了很大件事。
也不想多提~嗨....

希望他赶快好会咯~我和姐姐们都很担心她...
而且我也没想到他们那样对3姐...嗨~
只想快点没事咯!我很快就要回去学校了,
家里只有爸妈不懂能不能管好姐姐。
就因为爸爸还蛮不会反3姐,她想做什么就让她~
嗨~还以为我离开后姐姐会比较好点。
没想到我回来了还是那样。
怎么办呢?因为3姐的性格比较野一点,
所以还蛮难去说服她....

希望他越打越会了解爸妈对他的担心咯~

8/27/2009

last decision

tat day I was deleted his hp number..

Originally, deleted the number is the best way for myself..

I wont simply to find him..

Good Job JOEY^^

4more days I have to back INTI...Back To the college life...

Cheer Galz.. Meet him soon... Maybe not the negative thing.

And Gonna Homesick again...

8/23/2009

要不要呢?

我是否要不要不问问他到底还有没有喜欢哦?

他之前又和我表示过喜欢过我,

但因为我为人和男孩们又像哥儿那样,

曾经让他不敢和我有些表示。

虽然那时我发现到他对我真得很好很好,

然后突然间又不理我了。

当他突然间不理我时,我开始想念他,

还很奇怪为什么她什么都不理我了。

当时针和很气很奇怪,

直到那天他和我说清楚后...我才明白。

那时心里有点开心地感觉..可是当他问我的时候我绝不像回答她我是否对他又没有感觉。

但我心里明明是有的。为什么我不当时答应呢?

到现在他每次对我不理不睬的。。

那到底还有没有喜欢我的?搞得我心痒痒的~

那我到底要不要和他说清楚?要不要问清楚他呢?

教教我吧....我需要求救~

8/21/2009

被骗

如果你被骗你会怎样呢?

我会看对象...
最近发现被一位很好很好的朋友骗我。
我没有揭发她,还装作不知道。
因为我真得很认真地和她交朋友。

但心里有点不是很开心。嗨~
但我希望我误会她了..

8/19/2009

想不通....

朋友的定义是什么?

8/17/2009

慢慢地~

这几天心情差到要命,
真得很不开心,
很不愉快。。

都快要两个星期了,
总算慢慢变好了....
在这两个星期真的很难过,
硬着头皮和大家笑,说笑话,打招呼。。
这些我都很不想去做...
因为心情真得很不好.....

但今天我起床了,
不懂什么风把我的臭臭的心情吹走了一点点,
起床了脸竟然不是揪起来的...凡而放松了...
所以今天的心情虽然不是最佳的状况,
但总比夏两个星期的好...

加油咯~JOEY!!!!!
明天的明天的明天我会很好很好的~
加油!!!我一定要把烂心情打死!!

8/15/2009

how?!

the mood become bad and bad...
tomolo going back to hometwon soon...
i should be happy..
but....
dunno why..
too bad..
I'm so suck...
worst..

8/12/2009

最后

好不容易等到最后一天的两个test了,
但我没感到松一口,而是很辛苦。

因为最后两课是business和IT.
这两课都需要用来背的。
如果没背的话,你完全不懂要如何回答。

不懂这个死college在干什么鬼。
把这两课那么难得搞在一起。
想要学生re-take啊?
那样你们能赚钱哦.....

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊!!!!!!!!
我要怎么办啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊!!!!!!!!!!!
现在我的头脑要爆炸了!!!!!!!!!!!!
谁人来救救我啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊!!!

但想到考完了试就能回家乡了!!!
嘻嘻~^^还满开心的。。。

因为回家能让我感到开心点。
昨晚发现了,我不开心的原因。
但我不想说出口,也不想写下来。
想收起来~把它埋到心理最最最深的一处。
时间把它毁灭~

回到家里我就不想想那么多了,
轻轻松松过我的假期,
谁我都不想找,就在家里面。
因为那样我才能好好的反省,忘掉它~

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另外一件事我非常不明白的事,
就是为什么college生一定要谈恋爱呢?
是不是那么的重要哦?
书都没读好就要谈恋爱啊?
我只是不明白,为什么一定要呢?
不能顺其自然吗?她或他都非要不可?
真的很不明白他们啊!!!
很奇怪哦=.=

给你们看看这个女生吧~
她就是那一位一天到晚都要爱爱爱爱的。
自己的成绩都有问题,
还每天都爱爱的。
天啊!!!!为什么有那样的人啊!!

*http://lia-diaries.blogspot.com* 她的blog咯~

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另外哦~
我的那班朋友也是一样噢噢~
一个两个都在搞暧昧~
我真的不懂噢噢~
Haiz Haiz Haiz~
让我没话讲=.=

8/11/2009

那感觉回来了~


想一个人过一生的感觉又回来了。。。

这几天都没吃东西,
就算又都是小小的一餐。
这有可能使考试的压力咯~
但很大的原因是,
我不开心。

以前在中学不开心的感觉回来了。
想一个人做完全部是。

这种感觉很辛苦哦~
尤其是,找不到人哭诉。

我的知心朋友呢?他或她在那里?
什么东西都收在心里,
原来真的那么辛苦的~

但想讲出来,却找不到人。
尤其是连自己不开心什么事都搞不清。
为什么又让我不开心了?

一大堆朋友每天一起吃早餐,午餐,晚餐。
以前我很享受的。
但最近不懂怎么了。
我开始不想和他们一起出了。

那感觉真的回来了,
我开始一个人独来独往了。
还以为自己来到新地方会很开心,
可是到最后还是回到原点。

一个认真的比较适合我吗?

8/07/2009

很无助T.T

在这里读了很久的书了,
final exam也就在今天来了,
第一天靠的竟然是我一点都不会,不懂得历史课。。

我又很努力的去读,去明白它。。。
也不断地问朋友,请朋友教我。。。。
每天都通宵来温习功课,
但今天考的第一题我就不明白了。。。

但是我真的哭了起来,
默默一个人坐在考场哭,
为什么我努力的一切没有成果?
把眼泪收起来,继续做完它。
我很努力地把每一题做完。

考完试了,整个人很无助,很不开心。
我不想吃东西,就一个人慢慢的走回房。
因为我很想大哭,所以赶快到房里哭。


所以现在我是流泪的。。。

7/23/2009

很久了~

很久了没update了。。
在这里的生活马马虎虎,
读书,考试,忙assignment,persentation,entretaiment,pool...

不知不觉这样就过了2个多月,
在这两个多月也发生了很多事,
要讲也很难又长,
一句话讲完,在这个世界上什么pattern的人都有。

我们讨厌的也有,geli的也有,气死人的也有,调皮的也有。
总之就真的什么都有啦~

真的不知不觉我又要考试了,
哇~!!!!我很紧张叻!!!
超怕会re-take哦!!!
噢弥陀佛哦!!!保佑保佑!!!>.<

有点矛盾的感觉,
真的想问清楚一件事叻!
气死我啦!!!>.<

6/21/2009

Thank You.

THANK YOU,

NG NYUK KIM,my mummy..
Mum, thank for you born me.
Thank for ur sweet caring since I was born till now,
I was felt so warm and sweet!!
Mum,ThankzzZZzzZZzz.

CHIN HON SHU,my daddy..
Dad, thank for you teach me.
You has been give me a lot of knowlegde,
bought usefull thing to me.
Dad, ThankzzZzzZzzzzZZ.

SHET YIN,SHET YEE & SHET CHING,All my beloved sister..
Thank for u all make my life joyful,
Thank for u all's caring,
you all my most closely sisters,
LOVE YOU ALL!!muackZZZzzzz.

HON MUN KANG,my closely friend.
Thankz you~


* forget to post this long long time ago... I was wrote this few months ago.

家 & 父亲节快乐 & 他

这个星期没到kajang找姐姐,
因为姐姐回Sabah了(damn jealous her now).
搞得我这几天都很不开心,
因为我很想回去,不想呆在这里,想念那里(means sabah).

虽然在这里我能和朋友玩得很癫,
但回到宿舍就没有家的感觉,
没妈妈的打声骂喊,又没有爸爸的威严,
没和姐姐争吵的感觉,没家里的味道!!

嗨~我真的很想家!!我很想回去,
回去无忧无虑的家,关怀的家,温暖的家,快乐的家,
但我不能。

8月16日到8月31日,
我将会回到Sabah,但只有短短的两个星期,
很短很短,所以我会好好的珍惜的。

今天是父亲节,又没能和爸爸说声父亲节快乐!
昨晚12点正发了一封信息给爸爸,
给了爸爸满满的祝福和关怀,
希望爸爸感受到。

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本来打算post张我和爸爸的照片,
原来只从小学后,我没和爸爸单独一起拍过照了,
我很不开心,真的很不开心。
一张都没有。

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今天的心情很不好很不好,
想了很多东西,全都是不开心的东西,
很久没那样的感觉了。
很久没有流那么泪了,不停的流。

他是怎样的?头脑不断问我这个问题,
他又骗我吗?为什么会变成酱,
当我真的很想问清楚是,他都很不情愿的回答我。

被人伤害的感觉又回来了,
而且一次比一次痛。
讲到这些就感觉到自己很像很缺爱的感觉,
觉得自己很像一定要谈恋爱的感觉。

但我不是!我不懂要如何表态我的感觉。
我真的很想弄个清楚,不想自己每天乱乱的想。
这样更辛苦!T.T

6/18/2009

Colourful life

I was studies at INTI UC one months ago.

I felt so happy,
that because of I had made a lot of friendly friends and crazy friends!!!






All of us always stick together..
Breakfast together,Lucnh together, dinner together,supper together,
Sport time together,Singing together, and so on.

We all just like funny GENG & such family.
When someone get sickness,all of us will really care he/she.
Hahaha...
Anyway.. I was so happy that I can know each others!!!
Love u guys ya!!! MUAKZZZZZZ..

BTW, I miss my hometwon SABAH so much.>.< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgUTqMver6dYEuJCcwI-lW5E2L-3bYz_q3TcQVo4E6CHRo2QHwd1wORFL9EPVbQ9EeIeD_nI7VzXKdsj9flqpLQV35dMxNQDx5uUYWTyWyyHdvyHgwRm5FrziDup-Ji4tocwXg8z6OVnrk/s1600-h/IMG_0433_resize.jpg">

6/09/2009

Aiyo~

Next week Happy Farther's day ooooOOoOOo...

hehehe~ This week going to shopping ooooOOOooo...

Buy present to mum(Last mon Morther's day present) and dad...

So I can shopping too.... I wan buy bag and skirt ooooOOOOo....

Hehehehe... Happy ya!!!!!(^.^)

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My blog tittle... " Aiyo "

Why I wan Aiyo ?

Cause of this week I gonna to shopping,

then next week still got 2 test arrrrgggghhhh!!

My godness!!!

I must cant concentrate to study oooo000ooooo...

T.T

Test Test Test Test

aiyo!!!!

Test here Test there...

Make my mind cant relax aarrrrggghhhh!!!

Tomorrow still got test...

How oooo!!!

Lazy argggghhhh!!! my mind so suffering now..

I need big rest!!!


6/07/2009

blogging?

This few days,
no mood in blogging>.<

6/03/2009

Finished the 1st test at INTI

Today was finished the 1st test at INTI,
I memorize all the point and function b4 I going to test.

But when I go in to the hall,
I forgot everything,
I try my best to re-think it,
but also a litter bit only.

So the whole test I jz try my best to finish answer it.
O MI TUO FO aaaa....
hopefully I wan pass it lar..
hehe~

beside that,
friday having a test again~
English test!!!!

OMG!!!! my english gamma bad like a shit...!!!
how how how how?
GUANG YING NIANG NIANG should be BO PI BO PI oh...
hehe~
and cz of study my pimple come out edi..
and my panda eye!!!!
how ugly am i!!!!
sob sob...T.T

6/02/2009

tomorrow test

Tomorrow got a test of business..
Seem like so hard,
but the exam jz only one hours.

So I think tat will a bit easy.
Hope so~
My 1st test at Inti UC.

Good luck to me loh...^^

And tomorrow my time is continuous..
12pm till 6pm!!!!!!
die!!!

6/01/2009

This week got two test.

Shit...
Jun got a lot of test.

Every subject have test for us.
Just realize that I got a lot of thing I dunno.

Shit...
Last week I din go back to kajang,
stay at hostel.

I,heng gee & derick stay at campus only.
Start from friday till yesterday.

We all just yam cha,pool,yam cha,pool,singK.
Do those stuff only.
But all of this activities for night only.

Morning give us for sleep,
afternoon having our breakfast+lunch,
then back to campus for study.

Everyday also like that,
even quite bored,
but we also talk a lot while we stick together.

hehe....
we all sharing all our's pass~

Now I want to study again loh...^^

5/30/2009

Missing My Family

I miss my family so much.

My mum My dad All my sis!
My dog

5/29/2009

Didn't going back.

Today is friday.
But I didn't as usual going back to kajang find my sis.
I stay at hostel,
almost all my friends going back thier hometown,
left my 2 KAKI dinner friends here.

Now even I wan going back I also want back to sabah,
not kajang here.
Reach the house I also can't smell the sweet sweet taste.
Cause that is my 2nd sis's fiance house,
not the house which I was lived 10years edi.

Haiz.... Miss my mum so much hor...
I wan eat my mum's cooking!!!
I miss my bed!!!
I miss my toilet!!!
I miss my car!!!
I miss my turtle!!!
I miss my sabah fren!!!!
I miss everything at my hometown!!!

HaizzZZzzz... jealous my fren which really can go back thier real hometown,
but I just can back my fake hometown!!

Really can't TAHAN edi,
hope that can fast fast finish the final exam!!
But I scare the final exam too>.<

5/26/2009

Test 1?

Every subject was has their test 1 already.
Next week start all the Test 1.
So tat's my 1st test at Inti UC..

hehe.... wish luck to me^^
I haven start any revision now.
How stupid am I?
How lazy am I?

aikzzZz....
Can't waste time & money here anymore.
Gonna serious now.
Tonight I will be so serious to study^^

5/20/2009

Inti Idol???!!!???!!!???

OpSSsssssss.....
Just now...
4.17pm at Inti UC,
bakery outside~

Chin shet yan,Nick name Joey,
Was joined Inti idol edi...

5/19/2009

Study

Everyday,we go out to yam cha,pool & singK.
Last night we goes to played pool again~

Suddenly all of us felt like is time to study,
JUNE gonna to start our test 1,
but we still din study & going to yam cha pool & singK.

I & derick felt like we wasting our parent's money now,
because here.
We paid for study,but everytime go to class we just chating and playing~

OMG~ how come?!!????!!?!!?!
Hate myself now.
And the business class started make me blur already.
I totally dunno wat she talking about in front!!!!

My Ma Ma Mia~
help me....

okokok~ I gonna to help myself now~
to9 study study study and study!!!!!

need going to class now.
today class 12pm till 4pm...
SienzZZzzz>.<

5/18/2009

I like this~

Haha...
Even all of my stuff became so worsted,
but now I enjoying my life with my coursemate.
Because all of them so funny and not fake~

Last9 we going to singK again~
seem like our college's life is pool,singK & whole din sleep.
Even though those thing such as so bored but all of us having fun during the activitives.

Last9 we goes singK again~Nilai Mybox,6peoples per3hours just only RM60,not including food,
but I think quite cheap,but again~
the sound is bad.

now the PRETTIST GIRL also joined us going to singK.
Obviuosly I dislike the feeling while singing with her.
Nvm, now she get in the F*CKING STUPID Ms.inti,
so now she will be so busy,
then I will be more happy and happy!!!
haha... she gonna be so busy,then I gonna to relax my ears soon too~


===================================
Inti idol???!!!!???
I love to sing,
now got a chance let me to show it,
and all my fren here told me that I can sing,
but I have no confident.
how?

Wanna to join or not?
should be make a decision now..
hmph~


5/17/2009

Worst~

Damn worst..

My life such as worst.. Everything becomes worst...

My ENGLISH WORST....
My MELAY MORE WORST....
My LOVE RELATION WORST....
My $$ PROBLEM WORST....
My EVERYTHING SUCH AS WORST....

How can I survive at my life now???
I felt helpless now~
I need supporting now...
Someone,somebody or something?

Today also whole day din sleep...
2days like that,with my friends stay at hall and online chating there.
Even those thing such as so lame,
but I'm not felt so tired & sleepy.
Cause I also dunno why.

Now I just felt so down at my life.....

5/14/2009

没睡~

昨天和coursemate一班又去唱k了。。。
真的有够力~
连续两天都去唱k叻。。。
而且这次去有一位男生令我感觉到很讨厌。。
唱歌又不是很好听,又要一直唱。。
然后还耍帅!!恶心到极点啊!
(幸好他不是我的coursemate,他是我的coursemate带来的一位陌生人)
幸好只吃了面包来顶肚子而已,要不然我一定快要吐了。。

但在同一时间,我发现了一位我的coursemate唱得很好听,
我很喜欢~听得我都快融化了~哈哈哈。。。
但他不是我的那杯茶。。嘻嘻~
玩得还满开心的~
唱了3个小时后,打算要回college了~
那般男生看见pool又进去玩了~>.<
有点气死我了~呵呵。。。。

到了今天半夜1.30才回到college,
而且那位唱歌很好听的男生还和我们玩大了~
挑战我们今天一整天别睡觉~
所以大家回房那电脑到大厅上网,无聊得过时间~

无聊无聊着,闹来闹去,吵来吵去,就这样到了早上7点。。。
大家回房冲凉,然后带回8.30去吃早餐,
10点上课~-_-"
我想这次我们惨了!! 呵呵~
整夜没睡,待会一定眼睡死了~
哈哈哈哈~没办法嘛~

这样子也蛮好玩的。
虽然我整夜没睡,但我反而不眼睡,反而累而已。

哈哈~4点上完课就能回咯~ 不用在这里!! 哈哈哈哈哈

p/s:chg back to chinese more good~Sorry alvin...

5/13/2009

$$

No money!!!
Last two week ago,I was used a lot of money~
Just only 2days,I was used around RM100++.

That's because of my BIG SIS came to kl already,
I need to spent a lot of money at transpot,food & others.
Just only those thing was wasted a lot of my money~

Even I still got some money at BANK,
but I still want to control myself dun use too much~
If not I would felt like waste my dad money too.

So this week I didn't go out for dinner or else,
I stay my room eat bread,biscuit & my favorite NESCAFE!!!
hehe...Actually those food can't full my stomach,but still can TAHAN..
If really too hungry I just can eat maggi to full it.

So last9 I was attended a college friend's birthday party.
At the beginning acutally quite bored,
because some of the boy didn't singing & just quite at there.
So I felt like so bored & the GIRL keep singing there,
make me felt so annoying~

But lastly & luckily I got another friends,they all Jia Xian,Chea Yee & Eme,
play wit them and keep taking photo & singing with them,
started from that time I was started crazy,
all of us standing up to singing,dancing & shout out!!
hahaha... Fun!!







Yeah~our happy picture.....
Still got a lot,but not at my phone~^^
Look all the pictures,I was took photo with a person which I like play with them,
Hate the girl!!! So I didn't go to her beside and said:"Come we take photo."
=p,I dun wan!!
Hehehehe!!

haizZz... But sadness!!!
The party also need money ooo0000ooo..
So now I totally BANDKRAP a!!!!
and some of the class and subject need to pay those photocopy money,
text book photocopy~
Adui!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I need money now!!

5/11/2009

Wow~

This few day I didn't update my blog,
not I lazy,not I have no topic,not I moody also.
It I can't online since I was goes to KL~

And how stupid am I,
I bring my laptop to KL,
so suffering to carried this heavy laptop by bus,KTM,monoroil + walk.
Finally,just realize that I didn't bring my laptop charger!!!
Then the finally of the finally I go a computer shop ask for charger my laptop,
so lastly my laptop full battery already.

After that my big sis lousy hotel no wifi,
can't online too...
Need we going to KFC order some food at there and online at there,
what a lousy KFC also,hard to online easily,
I think maybe wasted my laptop battery around 20% then I just succeed to online.
The object why I wan to online that because of I want send the mum's card to my sis which stay at sabah now..

YEAH!!!!Finally I was succeed to designed the card~
Then I was sent to my 3rd sis..
The next day,(meant before mother's day that day)
my 3rd sis early morning called me,
asked me add more word at dad the place there.

So using my low battery laptop to some word..
Finally,became like that...
More funny + nice...
At the end,I with my big sis going to KFC eat some food again,
that because of I want to online and send this picture to her.

WTF!! my laptop having a problem,
dunno why when I wan to send something to friends or family,the window will close it automatic!
Even I used e-mail also like that..So I keep tried and tried,
finally I can send the picture with msn,
but my 3rd sis didn't online.


OMG!!! so I send it to one of my friend,
then asked her send to my sis.
But finally of the finally my 3rd sis online,
my low battery laptop keep warning and warning!!!
But lastly I safety sent the picture to my mum^.^
(another rush day)

My mum was received it at yesterday night 7pm something.

*09/05/2009 till Mother's day

Now said about today what happened in my life.
Cause last9 I was followed my 2nd sis back to kajang,
then morning my 2nd sis will fetch me to KTM back college,
to have my class at 12pm.

So I though that my 2nd sis will call me wake up when she wake up too.
So when I saw my HP clock was 8am already,
but I didn't wake up cause I know my sis will call me wake up,
but again,when I awake at the second time was 10am already,
It was terrify me,
I rush to toilet brush teeth and wash face,
Then finished everything,
my sis's fiance came in said bring me out for breakfast,
then he said I will be reached my college on time,
so that I just will followed him to ate.

When I reached KTM that time was showing me 11am already.
Obviously,I can't reached on time already.
When I reached nilai was 11.30am,
I felt that I still can reached on time,
but how stupid am I,saw the inti bus there I didn't by the bus,
I goes to by nilai bus!!!
The bus was trun a round just stop at college,
so finally 12pm I reahced college,
but I carried many thing so I went back to room put all the thing,
it's 12.10pm.

Then I think I better dun go to class,
so I was absent one time on my general studies class.

While I at room,I go to shawer then washed my shirt then do something.
4pm go to my basic mat class~
Tat's all for this few day happened!

And now I'm so tired,
need a good rest now~

5/07/2009

tired

Today I was quite tired,
but so sleepy.

Dunno why is it the felt,
but I really so sleepy.

Today as usually 7.30pm go out dinner with those "cows"
(that mean by our group called "cow").
Finished ate,
they going to play pool~

I really dislike to play and I dun wan to meet the girl anymore,
every early morning need meet her till night,
so I dun hope 24 hours stick with her together~~

So when I reached my room,
I as usually on laptop,
hang around with my beloved laptop here,
then suddenly thinking that I wan desgin a mother's day card to mum.

So copy here,paste there,search there,download pic here...
Finally got a concept to desgin it.

Firstly,I just very very simply to do it..


Then I was sent it to my 2nd sis.
hahahaha~ she said she like it..

Then I trying to make it more funny.

add our sisters face inside then become like this...

Then my 2nd sis said she look so fat called my change pic,

and I tried to put dad face inside too..

Finally become like this..


Lastly~ I and my 2nd sis would like this pic so much.

Tomorrow I going to meet my big sis and 2nd sis,

then we all will use mouse freehand to wirte something inside.

So tat meant we all with one own's hand write to mum,

even we all not at sabah~

5/06/2009

hope got work to do.

Really so bored.
Suddenly I hope that I got a lot of work to do,
for the example:assignment(but I scare I cant handle),homework(I scare I dun understanding),go singK(scare I will be so relax,forget to study) and some stupid thing.

Haiz... Dunno how now!!
Hope faster friday then I can go to kl find my big sis,
she come here for working training tow months here,
then alone stay at hotel,pity her no friends,
so this friday finish class direct go find her.

now got a bit worry about next week study's thing.
Cause the 2nd weeks for study,
so I think must got homework and start assignment already.
really scare I can't handle it.
how how how?

Even exma I also felt like not so confident.
having a lot of stress now.

Hope to get all the work,
see that I can handle it or not,
better than I sit at here just worry.

5/05/2009

It's too free?

The second day I studies,
my friends they start their homework and assignment already.

But I still seem like so free and relax,
this felt make me got a bit scare.
All my lecturer were gave me a lot of stress,
cause they said till like hard to pass the exam,
or like got a lot of homework and assignment.
This was made me felt so scare.

I scare that I can handle it,
exspecially assignment,cause I dun really think I can do it well.
When I studies at secondary school also can't do my folio well,
now want to do assignment??!!!!??
My brain still keep repeat a question,
"I can do assignment well or not?"

And my english really so poor,
I just only know how to use those simple word only,
I really can do assignment?
haiZZzzz....

Now I seem like so relax,
maybe is the second day start study only,
but all my friends they are having their assignment already,
they seem like so hardworking,but I still so relax.
Dunno wheater I will waste my dad money to send me study at here or not.

I really so worried I can study well or not~
I'm scare my 1st semester fail a lot subject.
Exspecially MPW=Mata Pelajaran Wajid(for malaysian students only).
You know what subject is it?
HISTORY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was failed this subject at my SPM,
how come I study at college need to study history again?
HOW ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

So stress now!!!I so worried about MPW this subject,
I dunno I can or can't?

All my subject I was no so confident at the first time till now.
I really so scare!!!

GUANG YING NIANG NIANG ARRHHHH!!!
HELP ME PLZZzZZzZZ!!!
I DUN HOPE TO FAIL ANY SUBJECT IN MY 1ST SEMESTER!!
GIVE ME SOME CONFIDENT CAN?


5/04/2009

Non-stop updat-ing Blog

This few day I updated a lot,
I think maybe I change to new place and start my new life at college.
Got a lot of thing I wanna to talk about.

My new friend-Emelia!!
I hate her.. Wat a fake's girl she is?
worst worst worst!!!

And bad luck to me!!!
I & her intake not same course but both of us stay at the class,
and our time table almost same>.<,just only two class are not same!!
Wat the heck is it?

I tot finished orentation I no need to meet wit her anymore!!
But FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!
I still need to meet her a lot!!!
OMG!!!

GUANG YING NIANG NIANG A!!help me plz!!!
you know she is wat kind of girl right?
I & her cant stick together a lot!!!!
If not I will be crazy!!!
Help me plzZZzz!!!!
Next semester I dun really hope to meet wit her anymore a!!!
plzZZzz!!!!GUANG YING NIANG NIANG!!!
BAO YOU BAO YOU O!!!


p/s:I was created a blog last day,at there I will talk about my love..
link:joeyinlove.blogspot.com

5/03/2009

10 sentence~ meaningful!!!!!

第一句

  如果我们之间有1000步的距离
  
  你只要跨出第1
  
  我就会朝你的方向走其余的999
  
  第二句
  
  通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人
  
  才是真正爱你的人
  
  第三句
  
  付出真心 才会得到真心
  
  却也可能伤得彻底
  
  保持距离 就能保护自己
  
  却也注定永远寂寞
  
  第四句
  
  有时候 不是对方不在乎你
  
  而是你把对方看得太重
  
  第五句
  
  朋友就是把你看透了 还能喜欢你的人
  
  第六句
  
  就算是believe 中间也藏了一个lie
  
  第七句
  
  真正的好朋友
  
  并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
  
  而是在一起 就算不说话
  
  也不会感到尴尬
  
  第八句
  
  没有一百分的另一半
  
  只有五十分的两个人
  
  第九句
  
  为你的难过而快乐的 是敌人
  
  为你的快乐而快乐的 是朋友
  
  为你的难过而难过的
  
  就是那些 该放进心里的人
  
  第十句
  
  冷漠 有时候并不是无情
  
  只是一种避免被伤害的工具