9/25/2012

我一个人在房里,我想过很多可能性。

我在想,【如果】我们可以像【5年前】那样两个人可以单独相处,那有多好啊。

我在想,【如果】现在有一位像你【5年前】那么的了解我,那有多好啊。

我在想,【如果】你还像【5年前】那样顺从我,那有多好啊。

我在想,【如果】我们到现在还是和【5年前】那么的合拍,那有多好啊。

我在想,【如果】我在【5年前】没有那么的没大脑,你就不会生气我,那有多好啊。

我在想,【如果】我在【5年前】接受了你,然后就算我们现在是分手了但我们曾经有过一段回忆,那有多好啊。

我在想,【如果】 我没有在【5年前】的那天推开你,那有多好啊。

我在想,【如果】我们在【5年前】的那天晚上大胆一点,那有多好啊。 

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我在想,【如果】很多很多的【如果】

如果你知道,我到现在还在伤着,你会怎样?

如果你知道,当初你的一时气话让我痛不如生,你会怎样?

如果你知道,在我的人生里真的只有你最懂我,你会怎样?

如果你知道,我现在会哭的原因全是因为你,你会怎样?

如果你知道,那天你说出现在我不会是你的好朋友让我心疼到现在,你会怎样?

那句话,真的真的很伤我的心啊!

你知道那天你说那句话,我正需要你的安慰但你还火上加油。

我听了,我当场哭了起来。

你没有立刻安慰我还骂我起来了。

你真的不知道,这句话很伤人吗?

而且,我才发现我在你的心目中真的连一颗灰尘都不如。

我不敢了。

电话号码删除了,我不会再找你了。

对不起,让你曾经有位让你感到反感严鄂的人在你人生里出现。

我会消失的。不会再来烦你。你要幸福下去。

 还有,谢谢你曾经冲动的对我做里那件事。

起码你让我留下那短暂的拥有。


9/02/2012

回来了

很久,真的很久很久没有这样了。

本来我就差那么一点点能成功的,可是又失败了。

我去kao zai却失败,然后又让我想回你。

我们真的不应该再见面了,真的很认真地说,真的不能再看到你了。

你又害我想起很多我们以前的事了。

不是,是他们不断谈回以前的是,不断的提起。

我说过不能,真的不能提起这些事!一个都不能。

而且为什么在他的女友面前那样的折磨我?

虽然我是笑的,但是我的受不起。

一个人哭,没人能倾诉,头脑不断的想啊想啊,哭啊哭啊~

你觉得我可以吗?

妈呀,我已经21岁了。

我在大学快4年了,在这4年里,除了和朋友的时间,上课时间,你就这样不断的折磨我!

可以对我公平点吗?

6/14/2012

My First Time, My Brave

Such a long time never update my blog although nobody read my blog.

haha... I got feel to update my blog suddenly just because I wanna show how brave am I.

Recently, I did something that I never ever did before in my 21 years' life.

Guys, know what?

May be I read too much of quote or meaningful movie, 

I read lots of quote about 爱是要争取的.

Sometimes I feel such quote so Noob actually,

so I don't even bother about it.

BUT!

recently, I agreed with that.and I started some action. 

I interested in someone, and he do not know who am I.

and I, go and be friends with him by FB.

such a big brave I did have. 

Seriously, really shy DAO BAO ah!

He seem like not interesting on me.

but I got try to chat with him.

If it's still not work, I think I'll just give up.

Cz really not suitable at all. haa xD


3/27/2012

Oh yeah!!

hmmm..
Guess what?

just now I have a fight with Airasia again..

Which mean I brought ticket to somewhere to play again..

1st , I wanna to say : F*ck You Airasia!! keep on waiting room!!

But after few hours, I succeed!!

I brought for KL to Macau!! RM461 per person.. Included luggage and seat.

is that expensive??

dunno whether expensive or not.

and now I am damn worry.

Cz I scare my parents going to "suk me gao gao"

Aug I am going to Phuket and now Jan 2013 I am going to Macau.

I haven't earn money but I am wasting my parents money now.

I know I am bad, but I really hope to have some nice memory with them.

I will try hard to earn some money and save money!!

Mum n Dad sorryy!!! >.

3/26/2012

Big Bang Alive Album!!

O.M.G!!!

Today I got it !!! I got it!!!

Is Big Bang Alive Album!!!

Wth!!!! This time that Album design is freaking cool!!

It is cover with iron... and the booklet inside!!

Two words to describe........"Cool & Heavy"

Check it out here!!

3/25/2012

Alone Life---4 years

Guys, I going to talk about my alone life.

During this 4 years, how I pass my life.

I think should be start on when I started my college life in INTI here.

In 2009, I leave my town, my family, my friends
*Ops, should said I don have any friends on the time*

I came here study with no one,
without my family.

We can say that I really started my brands new life in INTI.

During the 1st year here, I was freaking enjoy and happy.
Well, brand new what. Is really interesting.

But actually is it not that fun at all,
I been hurt by a lot of ppl that I knew from here.

However, I got a sweet from the hurt.

In 2010, that was my really happy started.
I knew my really friends here.
5 of them, I never ever forget about them.

I started to hang out, dinner, singK, travel and many more with them.
We got a lot of memories.

After the joyful with them, I will back to be alone.

How to say?
Lets talk...

After hang out with them, I back to my room and I am alone again.
After dinner with them, I back to my room and I am alone again.
After singK with them, I back to my room and I am alone again.
After travel with them, I back to my room and I am alone again.
After be with them, I will again and again to be alone in my room.

Well, I got roommate but she not alone at all.
She always stay with her bf.

But why I will alone?
Just because I'm single for 4 years and I use to be alone.

Yet, I got my family.
But after I be with my family and I back to my room,
AGAIN!!!! I AM ALONE!!

Actually, I'm scare with alone.
But such a long time to be alone, I will feel so lonely.

Sometimes,
I wanna to talks but I have nobody to listen.
I wanna to cry but I have nobody to lie on.
I wanna to laugh but I have nobody to laugh with.
I wanna to emo but I have nobody to talks.

Everything like to shows me like,
actually I got my friends and family,
but in fact,
I am alone, actually.

Well,
I may be have to be normal with this. =)

3/23/2012

blogging~

Wow, such a long time I did not post anything here.

Today I going to blog,

I just dunno why, just feeling to emo again..

Haaaa... WTH is that!

Again and again, my life is belonging with him.

He is not my BF, and even now we are not friends too.

But,
why everyday I will think of him suddenly?
why he will affect my mood?
actually, I got a lot of "why" to him.
Yet, I never ask him about my "why".
Because of I got no chance.
Or may be I not find the chance to let me ask "Why".

can we have a meet?
That just only me and you, because I got a lot of things wanna to tell you and ask you.

I know you are having a great life with your lover,
but I scare when doomsday is come, I got no chance to talk with you anymore.

I trust that doomsday will come in a day, but I dunno when.

I try to find you in many times,
I got your Fb, phone number, address.
But I never go and find you.

Because I scare that you will once again hurt my heart.

But I really need a long talks with you,
I just to heal my heart.

can you?
since now you are having a happy love life.
but I'm not.